Inner Thoughts ...

I miss my blog. har har.

2011-12-05T03:06:00.001+08:00

Time : 2.37 am

Venue: royal bedroom

Mood : exhausted but the brain won’t snooze.

Hi. I know it’s been a long long time since my last post. “rasa macam dah bersawang dah blog aku ni” Wonder if anyone stop by..

So throughout those effin long times, I was busy handling everything. “kekda mana pernah x busy” said my little sister Asilah once. Okay. Tetibe teringat kt acilah. Miss that little loudmouth. So anywayyys, I was busy with my studies, handling the house, the bills, the boyfriend, back to back to school, a servant for my princesses cats of course (wish they’d poop diamonds and gold instead of unpleasant looking .. thing)

So againnn long story short, I was elected as a Research Assistant by one of my lecturer from Interior Design department at my school. It was a bit overwhelming at first. I had no clue what I will be doing as an RA, I asked a friend once and she said it’s a “tired-job-and-less-pay” kinda thing but if I put my best effort on it, I’ll be fine. But I didn’t buy her last word so I Google myself for some tips, and here’s what I get.

Research assistants are an important component to the research process and particularly to large research projects conducted at larger organizations such as universities. Research assistants are particularly integral at research universities where faculty members are expected to carry out funded research as part of their job.

Job Description of a Research Assistant

These are some of the duties and functions that a research assistant is expected to handle.

Go through the different research documents and edit them.
Submit protocols of edited documents.
Obtain consent documents from the subjects on whom the research is conducted or the guardians of those subjects.
Make tabular formats, fact sheets, graphs and reports on each of the research results in order to summarize them.
Prepare databases as well as manage and manipulate them whenever needed.
Research assistant job description also requires them to assist in the designing of questionnaires and other survey methodologies.
Study and screen all the subjects that have registered as study subjects and determine their suitability for the research study that is to be conducted.
Take care of the follow-up that is required after the study is conducted.
Track the research participants for the same.
Proofread the date that has been researched and added in tables for any mistakes and correct them if any.
Take charge of the laboratory space and manage its allocation timings and days.
Prepare special programs for certain tasks like data entry and statistical analysis.
Handle the clerical work like data entry and others which are essential for completion of the project.
Interact with the clients to find out the nature of the job that is required to be done.
Perform assessment of the needs with the clients.
Exhibit the results of the research experiments to groups of people.
Assist in preparation of presentations, manuscripts and project related topics.
Survey the job of survey interviewers.
Keep a track of the laboratory expenses incurred.
Handle matters of participant reimbursements.
Keep a check of all the materials needed in the laboratory and buy them as and when needed.
Look into the different requirements of the research experiments and collect whatever is needed.
Use computers to perform varied forms of analysis etc of statistical data.
Convert material into code data for computer entry.
Conduct research which requires the use of the Internet or the library.
Formulate and bring into force varied research quality and control procedures.

Okay.. it doesn't look so bad does it?

-__-“

10 Things I Must Let Go Of Today.

2011-10-26T12:20:00.008+08:00

Some times you have to let go of things to allow new, more useful things, into your life. Letting go can be difficult, but it can also be very positive and rewarding. Here are a few things you MUST let go of if you truly hope to live a happy and positive life…

Let Go Of…

Guilt: Does guilt ever change the situation? Can it reverse time and change the past? The answer is NO! Guilt has no use what-so-ever. Let it go and get on with living. Take whatever it is that is making you feel guilty and use it as a lesson learned.

Negative Thinking: Negative thinking is one of the worst things you can do to yourself. One negative thought leads to another, which leads to a snowball effect of thinking that you can’t control. Pay close attention to your thoughts by noticing your feelings, if you are thinking something that is potentially negative turn it around immediately and replace it with something positive. This simple act will make a world of difference to your mood, and your life over all.

Need for Approval: Stop trying to get approval from others. Accept that you can not please everyone and focus on pleasing yourself. What others think doesn’t matter, your life is about how ‘you’ feel, accept that and enjoy it.

Anger/Heartbreak: Everyone has suffered at some point. We have all had our hearts broken or been hurt in the past. Let it go and allow yourself to move forward. Holding grudges and being bitter does not change the past, but it can have a great impact on your future and can even prevent happiness from entering your life.

Fake Friends: Having 438 friends on Facebook does not mean you have 438 friends. Chances are you have a few people online and in your life that are not ‘real’ friends, or that don’t really add to your life in any way. Break the negative connection and let these people go, true friends are hard to find but they add substance to our lives and they are always there when we need them.

Procrastination: Stop procrastinating, just stop. If there is something that needs to be done, just do it. Period. Procrastination is a bad habit and the longer you practice it the harder the habit is to break.

Envy: Envy is another one of those things that gets you nowhere. Why aspire to be someone else when your life is perfect just the way it is? Stop trying to keep up with the Joneses and be happy with the way things are.

Self-Doubt: A negative self-image can have a huge impact on your well-being, let go of your self-doubt and embrace self-love. Forget the ten pounds you think you need to lose, look past the flaws you see in yourself, and stop thinking you are not good enough. You are what you create in your mind, so point out 10 fantastic things about yourself right now and start sharing those great things with others. Chances are the more you love yourself, the more others will appreciate and love you as well.

Limitations: Your limitations are what you make them, if you doubt you can do something you will fail in your attempts. Stop putting limitations on yourself and reach for the sky. Your self-imposed limitations are the only thing holding you back from accomplishing your goals.

Time: Stop focusing on the clock. In today’s modern world everything we do revolves around time. Time for work, time for dinner, time for meetings, calls, and rest. Outside of work let go of the time restraints and simply do what feels right for you, stop living life by the minute and start living the life you want.

It can be difficult to break these habits listed above. There is challenge and obstacles each of these examples presents, but overcoming these challenges will help you achieve the balance and positivity you want in your life and is well worth the effort. Choose one, two or a few of the examples above and make the choice to change your actions today. One small change now can mean big changes in the future, consider what is most important to your life and live accordingly.

Sweet escape.

2011-10-25T20:34:00.002+08:00

Awesome Sketch.

2011-10-25T19:33:00.006+08:00

Nak buat jugak lah.

No Shame in Stillness.

2011-10-25T18:54:00.007+08:00

Today I did something shocking, socially unacceptable and so counter-cultural, it’s downright rebellious: I was still. To be specific, I put my feet up on the porch rail, leaned back in a deep chair, and sat in the afternoon sunshine for a while, accomplishing absolutely nothing.

Not exactly the picture of a revolutionary, is it? I know, but if you look a bit deeper, you might recognize that one action as essentially giving the finger to a powerful and ruthless dictator: the dogma that my busyness reflects my value.

Does the idea of sitting quietly, alone with your thoughts for a while make you sigh wistfully or squirm uncomfortably? Probably a mixture of both.

In my experience as a modern woman, we simultaneously long for and fear the idea of stillness. We tend to pride ourselves on how much we accomplish in a day, and so stepping away from productivity is a risk, as though we must prove the worth of our existence by never slowing down to pause. And yet, we long for peace and rest, to step off the treadmill of life occasionally and catch our breath. And so we allow ourselves an occasional “indulgence” in a piece of Dove Chocolate or an extra creamy Yoplait yogurt because their advertising gurus convinced us that it’s okay, you deserve it. And we’ll take our annual vacation, hoping to cram in all the R&R we’ve denied ourselves all year. But even those “treats” are usually accompanied by guilt, shame, and pressure to “maximize” the time.

And there’s another reason we don’t have time for stillness: I believe we avoid it because we are afraid of what we would find there. If I slowed down enough to really listen (to my spirit, my body, my mind), I might not like what it tells me. Or if I sat down to listen for the voice of God and sit with Him in the vulnerability of who I really am, what might He say to me? And so it is safer to fill my schedule with more work, more Facebook time, more music, more accomplishments than to slow down and be still.

But what if we weren’t meant to “make the most” of every day? To fit in the most activities, run the fastest and most efficient household, grow our business as big as possible, get the best we can afford, and achieve our utmost potential in every realm? Maybe doing more, faster won’t actually get us where we want to be…or where we need to be.

I am coming to believe that, if we want to truly live life, creating space for stillness is crucial. In spite of–and because of–all the pressures on our time, we have a built-in need for periods of quiet, rest and reflection. Although this may seem like just one more thing to fit in, I believe that if we will find a way to make space for stillness and reflection, it will reshape our lives. Just as the human body needs to inhale and exhale, we need times of work and times of rest, times to act and times to reflect. There is no shame in that. Many cultures have retained this rhythm in life, but looking at myself and around at our society, we seem to have forgotten the value in rest and reflection, condemning them instead as laziness, self-indulgence or worthless “navel gazing”. And I think we’re suffering for it. We don’t know how to just be with ourselves. And how can we offer much to others and this world if we aren’t even connected to our own selves?

So what are some ways we can reclaim stillness and rest in the midst of real life this week? It will look differently for everyone, and remember that it’s not about “what you do” but opening the posture of your heart and mind. In the stillness, you may find your mind racing to process thoughts that you haven’t been able to give your attention to, and that’s fine. Or you might want to acknowledge what you’ve been feeling lately and just sit honestly in that. Don’t try to solve every problem or reach a great conclusion during this time. If you aren’t sure what to think about and you want to connect to God, just pray. He is always there.

Here are a few ideas I’ve been implementing lately, during my experiment in living more slowly:

Sit or lie in a comfortable space for a while; even if you only have 5 or 15 minutes to spare, set a timer and enjoy simply being there.

If you’re waiting in line at the bank, store, or on the phone, reclaim that time as an opportunity to be still in your heart.

While at your job, work hard and focused for an extended period and then step away from your computer for a few minutes (such as 55 minutes on, 5 minutes off); studies have shown this actually increases productivity and decreases overuse injuries such as eye strain, back and neck pain, etc. If you can walk a lap around the building outside or go look out a window for a few minutes, you may find yourself rejuvenated and ready for the next big push.

Eat sitting down at a table; turn off your technology and taste your food; be aware of it pleasing your taste buds and nourishing your body.

Take a walk or jog outside and observe your surroundings; leave the iPod at home and listen; what do you see, smell, or feel?

Leave your car radio off on your next drive; is the silence uncomfortable for you? That’s okay; don’t try to fill it.

Do something the slow way; it’s far more convenient to buy bread from a store, but sometimes I like to take a few hours to bake a loaf of bread, kneading it by hand, letting it fill our house with its scent, and then eating it while still warm from the oven. Whether it’s baking bread, washing dishes by hand, or driving the scenic route, allow yourself to choose the slow way sometimes if it is more enjoyable and meditative for you.

Spend time just being with your child or pet. Ponder the simple wonder of a little one, pet your dog or cat for a few minutes, take a nap with your child. If you don’t have a chld or pet at home, observe the birds outside your window. The little ones have much to teach us.

Find healthy boundaries for “screen time”. I’ve found that if I’m still on my computer after 9pm, I go to bed later and grumpier than usual. So I try to shut down by 9 and spend the remainder of the evening in a more relaxing way. However that applies for you, pay attention to your patterns and find something that leaves you feeling more rested and centered.

Floating Dreams.

2011-10-12T17:37:00.009+08:00

So today I was doing some research on Renewable Energy. Presentation due next two weeks and I've got nothing. T_T ok drama queen habis. Ade la idea sikit - sikit. So anywaysss.. I came across this cute lil structures. I've always adore such awesome structures no matter how BIG nor small they are.

The exhibition is a collection of small structures that represent different ideas and situations, sceneries and landscapes using sculpture and installations. One could also call this show a "microscopic vision of the world" but maybe this would be diminishing as dreams would wouldn't be included.

Filipe Pinto Soares debuts with a solo show of twelve pieces, divided amongst three dimensional story boxes with little figures and moving structures, known as mobiles, a term created by Alexander Calder (1898-1976) when in the 1930's he became one of the first artists to use moving sculptures. Some of the pieces in Floating Dreams are powered and lit by solar energy through small panels hidden in their structure. The materials used in construction include miniatures, plastic replicas, aluminium, wood, gold leaf and glass.

A microcosmos of ideas and experiences, of world visions and different contexts, from political views to parallel galaxies portraits, all created with detailed pure humor. Each spectator will have his interpretation. The metaphoric intention comes from the eye of the beholder, from the ability to find details in small structures and to frame these in the dream of the one who created them. These are highly symbolical pieces, with very little of abstract.

Comel nak mati kann??

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2011-10-08T17:42:00.000+08:00

Unfocused...

2011-10-08T17:10:00.002+08:00

Unfocused. Again. Pfft.

2011-10-08T17:01:00.002+08:00

The missing ring.

2011-09-28T15:09:00.003+08:00

Time : 3.12 pm
Venue: Study room
Mood : Studying. *supposedly*

I found my ring back.

Under the bed.

Yeay.

Question of the day.

2011-08-21T20:17:00.004+08:00

Once upon a time..

Jenny was rounding the corner to the bus stop when it hit her - a bright shaft of sunlight smack between the eyes. Her reaction was immediate: an unpleasant prickling in her nose, a quickening of her breath, an uncontrollable watering of her eyes. Then, almost as quickly as the sensation came, relief, blessed relief. Aaaaa-tisshoo! A sneeze.

It wasn't the first time. In fact, the same thing happens every time she goes into the sun. For a long time, she thought it was a quirk all of her own. Then a friend mentioned she was similarly afflicted. Next her mother came out of the closet. With a bit of digging around she came to a startling realization: not only is she not alone, but the "photic sneeze reflex" is actually common. Quite how common, no one knows exactly - but anything between 1 in 10 and 1 in 3 of us might be affected.

The more she looked, the more mysterious things became. Sunlight is the most widespread, but by no means the only, odd stimulus that sets off sneezing.

Q: So why does sunlight make some people sneeze?

Sneezing provoked by sudden exposure to intensely bright light is known as the photic sneeze reflex. It is not uncommon--about one in ten people are photic sneezers. Some studies suggest it may be due to an accidental crossing of nerve signals involved in normal sneezing and pupil dilation.

But the photic sneeze reflex occurs only after someone has been adapted to the dark for at least five minutes. Even photic sneezers' pupils will adjust normally (without triggering a sneeze) if they go in and out of bright light for short periods of time, so the real mystery is why an extended period of darkness makes a difference.

The reflex is not troublesome for most people (a notable exception are fighter pilots), but it is of considerable interest to scientists. Studying the photic sneeze reflex is likely to improve our understanding of sensory pathways in the nervous system, as well as the circuitry of the sneezing reflex.

--Discover magazine.

Random.

2011-08-21T15:30:00.009+08:00

Today is Archeology Day.

Yeay.

Gotta Google this one later.

All time favorite ‘kuih raya’.

Dream car.

Miss Ohio.

My WEAKness.

2011-08-20T20:49:00.003+08:00

Chocolate and Croissant.

I love the part when Nigella’s friend shakes his head when he bites the chocolate croissant.

I’m gonna make this one. Pronto.

The Whistleblower

2011-08-20T19:13:00.003+08:00

Rachel Weisz new drama, based on the experiences of Kathryn Bolkovac, a Nebraska cop who served as a peacekeeper in post-war Bosnia and outed the U.N. for covering up a sex scandal.

I've always loved movies based on true stories.

This one is a MUST-SEE.

A New Chair From Philippe Starck Salutes Midcentury Masters.

2011-08-20T18:37:00.004+08:00

Philippe Starck, the French designer, created the new Masters chair for the furniture manufacturer Kartell with the help of the designer Eugeni Quitllet. In doing so, he wove together three silhouettes by midcentury masters: Eero Saarinen’s Tulip chair, Charles and Ray Eames’s Eiffel chair and Arne Jacobsen’s Series 7 chair.

His explanation? “Quantum mathematicians teach us that we are merely the sum of our actions,” Mr. Starck said, noting that the chair’s “historical lines overlie each other and intersect to finally yield an organic design closest to our body today.”

Made of smooth batch-dyed polypropylene, the 33-inch-tall chair comes in black or white, and can be used indoors and out.

His design is always so brilliantly stylish. *jealous mode*

Old to Young Case Study in Photoshop by Cassio Braga

2011-08-18T14:34:00.008+08:00

Reading the comments about the Photoshop Battle and I noticed the a lot of people were interested in knowing and seeing the images that were created during the event. Because of that I decided to post this images this guy did in his first battle, which was his favorite. This time however he had more time to pay attention to some details, in the event he had only 30 minutes to come up with an idea and make it come true.

This simple idea makes me wonder and think about life and aging. Don't you?

Epic story.

2011-08-18T14:16:00.004+08:00

I was browsing through the internet few minutes earlier and came across this story..

When I was eight years old, a heavily-armed guerrilla threatened my family because of my father's politics. Afraid for our lives, we fled our beloved and familiar Colombia and settled in the United States. School proved challenging. Without a common language, understanding lessons and making friends was difficult. My parents worked hard to make ends meet. My dad toiled at two full-time jobs and my mom cleaned airplanes at night to make ends meet. The wages didn't always cover the expenses, and we sometimes resorted to renting out rooms in our tiny, overcrowded apartment. As a middle school student, I worked alongside my dad cleaning local car dealerships after they closed for the night. I scrubbed the toilets and washed the cars' windows as fast as I could so my dad and I would be able to get a little sleep before work and school the next day.

This guy sends this letter to Harvard School. The next few weeks, he was accepted.

Epic.

Mobile stories.

2011-08-18T02:04:00.031+08:00

This past few weeks was tiring but fun!. So i decided to upload all pics (well, prolly not ALL) from my mobile phone. So here goes..

Last Tuesday I had my second berbuka puasa with En. Amir at sushi king. Awesomeeee. As always.

Thank you baby. =D

Walaupun dah cuba buat muka terpaling comel habis... masih gagal dibelikan -.-"

Oh well, the sushi king dinner was still the best!

En Amir mmg x suka amik gambar, so plg best buli time dia tgh syok mkn salmon steak. =P

I was bored. My piri-piri chicken x sampai2 lg..

So buli En. Amir amik gambar kita pula.. ha ha

muka ngantuk kekenyangan. Ish.. ish..

muka masih xmo pndg camera saya. Xpe. Next time.

Earlier that afternoon, i was cleaning the house and as I was about to "bentang" carpet, si gedik meeko nk ajak main2. -.-"

Pose 1.

Pose 2.

Pose 3.

Ok bila x dilayan dia da start buat muka emo.

Yeay masjid bukit jelutong dah nak siap! ;)

So last few days my cousin Sarah spend 3 days at my house. We had so much fun! ;)

We made mac n cheese for Kopi Print Buka Puasa Day.

Luckily everybody loves it!

Licin teros~

These are slices of hot dogs ye. *in case you're wonderin*

And there goes the hot dogs add together with milk n cream + special ingredients!. xmo bgtau.. haha ;D

Even d rain won't stop Sarah from smiling!

Below is Meeko doing her bedtime-is-play time- thing. So me and Sarah couldn't sleep sebab Sarah takot kucing.. -.-"

Last week I went to shah alam mall to break my fast with En. Amir. The steamboat was delicious! But that day we had set meals instead. Awesome gak.

Last last few days *dah x ingt date bila* My family and I balik kampung utk sesi mengemas kubur...after that we went to Pantai Kelanang.. then straight to kebun arwah atuk n nenek. The durian trees was unbelivable!

ok The End. Terima kasih.

Postgraduate.

2011-08-14T11:44:00.007+08:00

Time : 11.27am

Venue: Dewan Sri Budiman, UiTM Shah Alam.

Mood : Bored to death.

So this morning i woke up rather excitedly just to be bored unsurprisingly. It's been like what... Almost 3 an a half hours trying to complete my Postgraduate Registration's Day. Right now there's about thousands of candidates with files, wearing formal attires, not to mention old folks with their kids *as postgraduates candidates i supposed*, foreigners *who happens to be seriously confused to the point of I had to explained to some of them how "THE SYSTEMS" works. -.-" so...we all came to complete this blissful day of registration ceremony *fake smiles*. Wished i had an iPad to kill the time. Seriously! The management here is damn miserable! Had to que up hours n hours just to take an id card photo, *oh come on... they only had 10 booth and there's thousand's of us??? Get real! Just now a woman lost her child in d mid chaos. But they found the poor little girl a half hour later.

Oh then again mane ntah si hakim n milhan ni. Confem still lepak kt office. -.-''

Note to self : Remember how sux the uitm system is sometimes and try NOT to be surprised. -.-

If you want me.

2011-08-05T06:13:00.005+08:00

Are you really here or am I dreaming

I can't tell dreams from truth

for it's been so long since I have seen you

I can hardly remember your face anymore

When I get really lonely

and the distance causes our silence

I think of you smiling

with pride in your eyes a lover that sighs

If you want me satisfy me

Are you really sure that you’d believe me

when others say I lie

I wonder if you could ever despise me

when you know I really try

to be a better one to satisfy you

For your everything to me

and I’ll do what you ask me

if you’ll let me be, free

If you want me satisfy me

Amanda's Love Song.

2011-07-27T13:47:00.007+08:00

Her beautiful voice is just too beautiful to resist. :)

Please won't you stay

be buried away

slightest symphony

all birds still sing

decompose their sins

and sleep throughout the day

the morning light

is shining away

and the fire heals the pain

i sat in quiet

a burning desire

in a world too young to see

children will play

each dying day

we'll still be running away

Pass few days..

2011-06-18T22:01:00.013+08:00

I had momentarily dozed while driving every time I drove my mom or my dad to the airport. Sometimes 8 times in 2 weeks. Back and forth. Prolly the fact that I am always drowsy or fatigued. So yesterday after I drop off mom at the airport, I stop by to my aunt's house at Sepang for few hours then was on my way home around 7pm. The sky was always so beautiful at this time of day. (nak maghrib kot, senja2 mmg la). So anyways, I was damn tired, been driving to Penang and the next day 2 times to the airport. Nonstop. I WAS EXHAUSTED!

I hate driving highways. Too straight! Sumpah mengantuk.

(Don't take pictured while driving people. This is a really BAD habit.)

But the sky was too beautiful not to.

Coco ni super manja.

Always on my lap. ALWAYS.

Pantang kot tgk aku ber'fb.

Meeko's 5th dead bird lay in front of my door step.

Thank God it wasn't a HAWK. -.-"

My last photo with my baby sister Acilah. ='(

missed her.

Oh and a... these are mobile uploads.

Gambar tak bpe best.

Terima kasih.

BBQ

2011-06-05T22:55:00.006+08:00

Heyyyyyyyyyyyy Hoooooooooooo Lets Go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Last few weeks we had a bbq party at home. "Saje2.. gedik2.." I wanted to upload this a week ago but... (sumpah lupa mana letak gamba ni) -.-"

We made...

Potato Salad

Macaroni and cheese

Juicy prawns I tell ya..

Chicken.. ahhhh nyum2.. *Don't get me started*

chickens, hot dogs, and prawns (All marinated)

Ok. Aku da start lapar!! >.<

Jom BBQ lagi!!!!!!

Mat saleh kata Malaysia tak la panas mana? Bohong!!!

2011-05-23T19:40:00.001+08:00

Nak tutti frutti 5 cup besar pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee! Hari ni sangat sangat sangat menguji tahap kesabaran aku. Benci sesat2 barat setiap kali g Putrajaya! Kalau boleh nak kerat2 badan orang tadi. Panassss yarabiiiiiiiiiiiiiii. Sabar aida sabarrrrrrrrrrrr. Balik2 Meeko buat muka comel Tunggu depan pintu. Dari tadi menanti kepulangan aku perhaps? Sejuk hati aku tiba2. Tq kejut saya solat subuh ya darl. Trus g kedai beli treats tuna utk dia. Meeko makan mcm tak ingat dunia.

Eh aku rasa dah turun 2 kg lagi harini. 0_o Terima kasih Malaysia.

Focusing.

2011-05-22T12:08:00.001+08:00

For about almost 6 months now, I’ve been really busy doing my freelancing. Learning each day, new task and all those pressures keep on coming. I wasn't that interested in studying again, let alone having the idea of pursuing a master’s degree that could possibly help further my career. I hold a Bachelor of Interior Architecture now, but since I am doing freelance, I kinda have second thoughts about pursuing my master's. (Although it’s my dream to become a successful interior designer one day, I think having a Master's in Interior Architecture would help my career more. I've been looked down by people I've looked up to before, and the feeling of being taken in-seriously with what I do has shaped my thought about the cruel people that are still living in this life just loathe me. I have yet to prove to 'these people' what I can do and until that day comes I still got plenty of responsibilities I need to take care of before I can achieve all my goals.

Prolly one day I got bored working with people I could always teach. Like they say "Those who can't do, teach".

Then again, I don't feel so exuberant much about anything right now. Eventho the thought of opening up a book in a library seems like the stupidest idea ever.

How I wish everything in this life is all about having fun.

Betrayed.

2011-05-22T11:33:00.004+08:00

Why is everything just got so hard to understand lately? Why is it so hard to achieve happiness in relationship? Why is it so hard to meet a guy who is way matured beyond his age? I seriously thought I found one. Bummer. It was all a joke. Men will never grow up.

What can I say? I already see it coming. Yesterday I felt worst. Today I feel nothing. The most sucking stages in a relationship is finally here.

The 'im so sorry' part. Macam babi!

..............

2011-05-21T22:53:00.002+08:00

Today has got to be the most boring day of my entire life!

Tido lagi bagus!!!!!!!!!!!!

...

The Real Deal.

2011-05-21T22:28:00.002+08:00

Layan...

This life is sooooooooooo funny!

2011-05-08T13:07:00.000+08:00

Why do I need someone who doesn't bloody trust me??

Enough is enough. Back to square one. Thank you very very much!

Almost there.

2011-05-01T21:27:00.005+08:00

Hi! It's been quite some time since I last updated my blog. Been pretty busy lately. Now I know why they say doing freelance job is not as 'simple as it sounds'. Especially when it gets to the construction part. Then the real headache begins. Okay. yes I get it!. It's nothing to be bragging about really, but some days are just too frustrating for me and i do have my boiling points. For starters, I do understand now why some people just can't be trusted by their sweet promises and before I knew it, I've almost lost my sense of professionalism in the middle of the journey. But I know now that every step that I take each day, all those sweat, nerve wrecking moments, my undying patience and precious time I've sacrificed since day 1 will be paid off soon. Real soon. I hope. InshaAllah and let everything ends well. Amin.

p/s : Thank you for the moral support love. Can't wait to go to JB! =)

Sabar dan aku masih belajar.

2011-04-22T04:15:00.003+08:00

"In order to be sustenance for man, a source of strength for his knees, a “light” for his eyes, and a substance for the maintenance of his life, a grain of wheat must be buried in the bosom of the earth, germinate under it, and grow to emerge into the air. It must come into the air after a fierce struggle with the earth, and then be sown and threshed, and ground in a mill. After that, it must be kneaded, baked in an oven, and, finally, chewed by teeth, sent into the stomach, and digested"

Needless to say, eventho everyone gets this hardcore feeling and the guts to do something stupid when things don’t go their way (which mostly I do), I understands now what dad’s word meant to me. Pissing off is the nature in business. It’s what reminds you that this life isn’t always as perfects as it looks nor as fair as it should be. Patience has always been the key for everyone to overcome and success will only comes to those who has given their all and turn to Allah when things don’t go right. For He has all the answers we seek.

p/s: Sayang, I know things has been hard for you lately. All I can say now is that I'll pray for everything you do and you'll get through today like every other day. InshaAllah.

Go go my tiger! Be stronger ya! =)

David, please be my mentor.

2011-03-19T14:40:00.002+08:00

He's too awesome. End.

My First Day in Sabah.

2011-03-19T13:44:00.016+08:00

Since it's been a while I have not met my parents, I pay them a visit in Kota Kinabalu, Sabah on the 14th of February and stayed there until the 22nd. It's been quite an experienced. Mom and dad was as same as before but they look more happier. I guess the place is really calming and green unlike the busy cities back in Shah Alam.

My first day in Sabah, I had a blast time going island hopping with my family. We went to Pulau Putih and Pulau Manukan where my great journey begins! The boat rental was RM16 per head. Pretty cheap don't you think? ;) There were a lot of tourist I met along the way, many of them was from Europe and they went there just to soak up the sun!

The boat was so fast and windy, I had to hold on to my cap because I was wearing my swimming cap and it got so slippery! *oh those two couples back there was 'having fun' smiling for my camera too.* =P

You can see by the look on mom's and Asilah's face she was trying to put a sweet smile but can't. It's too windy!

After almost half an hour on the boat, we finally got to Manukan Island!

I guess dad was trying to do the MJ thing.

Asilah's oh so-called letter to God. hehe

Yes, that cat went on a trip with us too. I named him Meowanukan =P

At 4pm we had to wait for out boat to come and pick us up.

Mount Kinabalu.

2011-03-19T13:09:00.009+08:00

While I was there, I followed my dad with his office mates to Kampung Kundasang which is located at the rural areas on top of the mountains, and gain a lot of interesting experienced.

I stayed at Mount Kinabalu Heritage Resort & Spa at Ranau formerly known as Perkasa Hotel Mt. Kinabalu, the resort is situated atop a hill approximately 5,000 feet above sea level and has a commanding view of the majestic Mount Kinabalu, the highest mountain in South East Asia and dominating Malaysia’s First World Heritage Site, the Kinabalu National Park. I experienced the panoramic view of Mount Kinabalu from my resort bedroom. It was spectacular!

Dad giving his speech to the people who lived at the corner of the mountain area at Kampung Kundasang. Below is Kinabalu Pine Resort near Kampung Kundasang area.

Mom and dad stopped by at the 'pasar bukit' that sells very cheap vegetables!

Hi.

2011-03-19T13:08:00.002+08:00

Hi. Hi and hi!

I just wanna say hi.

Home Alone.

2011-01-27T23:58:00.002+08:00

again. pffft.